i thinking back and forth.
whether or not i should close my blog.
.
been thinking a lot lately.
i know my friends thought i'm crazy..serious..
but i still love yuu all.
turning point.
since i saw my dad curi-curi smiling when we're talking 'bout future.
he's happy.
I'm serious.
he's really happy. not that fake type.
.
to be honest.
whether my blog is update or not,
all the pressure yuu all gave in my chatbox.
questions after questions why i didn't update my blog.
i don't really care actually.
doesn't interest me at all.
blog, i don't love you anymore.
the concept of sharing my memories with others.
doesn't sound tempting to me like before.
.
i'm 19.
going on 20.
i have dreamS to achieve.
and THIS is not what i want.
i love to write, that's true.
but not about everything in my life.
what i did.
where i've been.
what i've feel.
letting it out to the public
and discussing it later in that mini chatbox.
interest me no more.
i don't hate it,
i just have more important things to do.
.
some may think blogging is the shortcut to FAME.
they succeed when their visitors number hit it.
they fail when nobody link her/his desperate blog.
.
others find it the easiest way to express themselves
when they got no chance to say at all face to face.
.
most of them,
joined in blogging when their buddies had their personal blog.
i admit i was one of them.
.
i'm not saying blogging is the wrong thing to do.
but it is definitely the wrong thing for me.
i've been wasting my time thinking how to post this and that.
considering which photo i should upload to facebook.
looking back.
how much time i have wasted.
how disorganized i was.
.
if i want to be remember,
i would prefer it in the next..maybe.....5-10 years??
successful, beautiful, wealthy.
yes, that's how i want to be remember.
not now, when i'm just fighting my way up there.
.
so, my decision is...
i gonna temporary close my blog.
i still wil be here sometimes.
but now
i'm gonna leave it here.
so when i come back,
i will come back with achievements.
i promise myself.
.
why is this decision sound so important?
not because peggy wanna quit blogging.
it's because peggy had made her lifetime decision.
why i publish all this?
'cause i wanna make sure i don't fail.
a promise i made to myself with all of yuu witnessing.
i know what i want,
and now, i'm chasing it.
letting go things i don't care anymore.
rearranging my priorities.
work fucking hard.
.
wish that i'll be action but not just said.
.
been thinking a lot lately.
i know my friends thought i'm crazy..serious..
but i still love yuu all.
turning point.
since i saw my dad curi-curi smiling when we're talking 'bout future.
he's happy.
I'm serious.
he's really happy. not that fake type.
.
to be honest.
whether my blog is update or not,
all the pressure yuu all gave in my chatbox.
questions after questions why i didn't update my blog.
i don't really care actually.
doesn't interest me at all.
blog, i don't love you anymore.
the concept of sharing my memories with others.
doesn't sound tempting to me like before.
.
i'm 19.
going on 20.
i have dreamS to achieve.
and THIS is not what i want.
i love to write, that's true.
but not about everything in my life.
what i did.
where i've been.
what i've feel.
letting it out to the public
and discussing it later in that mini chatbox.
interest me no more.
i don't hate it,
i just have more important things to do.
.
some may think blogging is the shortcut to FAME.
they succeed when their visitors number hit it.
they fail when nobody link her/his desperate blog.
.
others find it the easiest way to express themselves
when they got no chance to say at all face to face.
.
most of them,
joined in blogging when their buddies had their personal blog.
i admit i was one of them.
.
i'm not saying blogging is the wrong thing to do.
but it is definitely the wrong thing for me.
i've been wasting my time thinking how to post this and that.
considering which photo i should upload to facebook.
looking back.
how much time i have wasted.
how disorganized i was.
.
if i want to be remember,
i would prefer it in the next..maybe.....5-10 years??
successful, beautiful, wealthy.
yes, that's how i want to be remember.
not now, when i'm just fighting my way up there.
.
so, my decision is...
i gonna temporary close my blog.
i still wil be here sometimes.
but now
i'm gonna leave it here.
so when i come back,
i will come back with achievements.
i promise myself.
.
why is this decision sound so important?
not because peggy wanna quit blogging.
it's because peggy had made her lifetime decision.
why i publish all this?
'cause i wanna make sure i don't fail.
a promise i made to myself with all of yuu witnessing.
i know what i want,
and now, i'm chasing it.
letting go things i don't care anymore.
rearranging my priorities.
work fucking hard.
.
wish that i'll be action but not just said.
.
bye-bye blog world.
1 comment:
juz go wif ur Feeling**
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